Today marks a special day. Its our last day in Dublin. But it’s more than that. It’s the last day in a foreign city. Tomorrow we head back to the States, New York to be exact, ready to embark on a new journey. Our life back home.
I know Mark tends to be the spiritual, reflective one while I post all the pretty pictures. But for my last post I want to make it a little extra special for our friends, old and new, that decided to follow us on our 4-month adventure around the world.
But this post is actually dedicated to my husband. While we walked to the Dublin Lighthouse today I was reflecting on the fact that I wouldn’t be here in this world if it weren’t for him and his unconditional love for me. You see, I was very very sick for half of 2009 and a lot of 2010. I suffered from a major depression that stole from me my love for life. I was suicidal for a very long time. I was hospitalized in a psych ward for 23 days. I describe this period of my life as “hell on earth.” But Mark. Oh Mark. He was by my side every single day.
While I hold his hand today with our matching All Stars (he is not too happy about this) everything feels different. We have been together for close to 11 years but the love and admiration I have for him today feels completely new.
This was never meant to be just a fun trip to get away and see the beauty of this world. This was a healing journey for the two of us. Getting sick changed everything…for the better I should add.
“How is that possible?” you might ask. I am a better person having suffered through a mental illness. I am a more loving daughter, wife and I know one day mother. I wouldn’t change a single thing. My past led me to today. And today I have a new-found love and appreciation for myself and my life. A new way of seeing the world and the people in it.
So my love, this post is just for you Mark. Thank you for being by my side in sickness and in health, through the good times and the bad, while we were laying on the beaches of Indonesia or with the beautiful girls at Daraja… you are my everything.
I’m looking forward to our many journeys in life. Holding hands, of course :)
PS. If you want to hear more about our life story Mark is wrapping up our memoir. It’s going to be titled “Where The Road Meets The Sun”. How very fitting! You didn’t think that was by accident, do you?